Sugar Free

Alright, two posts in one week isn't too bad for me, I guess. BUT I'LL STAY ON TOP OF IT.

Over the break, my mother called me frumpy. It has caused me to lose the shreds of self-esteem I had left, so I am now incredibly aware of my appearance at all times. Is this entirely a bad thing? Maybe not...I know my mother has my best interest at heart and since I constantly think about how possibly terrible I look, I don't look too shabby lately.

I bonded with a friend today about our well-known shabby/frumpy/hippie-ish appearances and although I do like the direction in which my style is going, I am annoyed at the fact that my hippie exterior must deteriorate to do so. However, I now work for the government at my first real, serious job that could turn into a career. Why must everything be so formal? I just want to wear my grungy, plaid/floral/striped/patterned lazy dresses and learn a lot of things from the flowers all in a golden afternoon.

Listography-wise, I am working on both of my lists: serious and fun.

I think that building a fort with the boyfriend will be my first fun goal, while top-notch style and looks, 24/7 seems to be my first serious endeavor of the year.

The fort will be in my backyard, and I will use it for many purposes, including: lounging, drawing, painting, exploring, pondering, writing, studying, reading, listening, and socializing. If I think of any more fort-functions, I will add them to that list.

And of course, 24/7 style and looks is at the top of my 'serious' list because it is now more of a paranoia that lingers like last year's leftovers in the back of my brain. Thanks, Mother. I think I'll use this opportunity to find new fashion inspirations, and post them here. It's time, I guess, to have a more sophisticated style.