Tomorrow, I start my career in education. Well, maybe I shouldn't call it a "career," because all I'm doing is volunteering at a pre-school. It's called Mainspring, and it's a place for children ages 0 through 4 years old who are placed under free (or almost free) care, because they come from underprivileged families. I meet with a woman named Margaret Silverberg at 9 a.m. and to be honest, I'm pretty nervous. I've only worked at a place like this once in the past, and it was something of a traumatic experience (that story's for a different time though). Anyway, children now make me nervous and I'm worried that I'm going to screw it up or hate it. I'm not sure what's worse.
For the past 4 months, I've been searching for a job. I attended a liberal arts university and got my B.A. in Art History and Communications in May. I have applied for jobs at museums, retailers, grocers, law firms, hospitals, abortion clinics, and video game manufacturers. Most of the positions I applied for were "entry level," which in this economy usually requires 3-5 years of experience in a related field. So far, I haven't landed a job in any of these places because my experience is either not relevant enough or not lengthy enough. Finally, my parents made a visit to Austin to discuss my "future." Great. My mom, who has been a teacher for over 20 years, encouraged me to apply to Alternative Teaching Certification programs. So, why not? I have always wanted to teach abroad, and this should be my first step. A little experience will be good for me. I can use my creativity for good.
But lately, I've felt less and less creative. I feel discouraged because I haven't found a job and I feel as if nothing that I do is good enough, or worth any of my time or anyone else's. I used to care so much about helping those in need, but I'm continuously giving less of a fuck about anyone or anything. We'll see.
UPDATE:
I woke up at 10 a.m. this morning - about an hour before my usual greeting time as of late. For some reason, the bed felt better than it ever had this morning. I just had to keep freshly shaven legs on those covers for a little bit longer - 30 minutes, no, 45, no, an hour longer than my first alarm. It is a problem that I can reset my alarm multiple times on my iPhone each morning, as I obviously take advantage of this feature almost every morning nowadays. Like clockwork myself, I awoke and immediately went about my 'strict' morning routine: brush teeth, (maybe) wash my face, pour out some raisin bran in a hefty bowl, maybe grab a banana or some yogurt, head back upstairs to my room and begin watching Netflix. The episodes go one after the other and my ear filters out the boring stuff while I browse the web. I mindlessly click the same site over and over, accidentally forgetting that I had just clicked on it not 5 minutes ago. I laugh occasionally at Amy Poehler's ridiculous lines on Parks and Recreation, or glance up and stare intensely at my iPad to see Heisenberg rampaging across the scene of Breaking Bad. If I get uncomfortable, I sometimes stand up on my heavy legs and stretch a little bit. Wait, how did I end up back on reddit? Just then, seriously.
I did not volunteer at Mainspring because I was too lazy, but luck was in my favor on Monday because Hudson Bend Middle School called me that same day for an interview. I just went in for it at 1 p.m., and it went pretty well. I need to work on my interviewing skills though because I was nervous the whole time and now I'm hoping it wasn't too obvious. I interviewed for a receptionist position in the front office.
For the past 4 months, I've been searching for a job. I attended a liberal arts university and got my B.A. in Art History and Communications in May. I have applied for jobs at museums, retailers, grocers, law firms, hospitals, abortion clinics, and video game manufacturers. Most of the positions I applied for were "entry level," which in this economy usually requires 3-5 years of experience in a related field. So far, I haven't landed a job in any of these places because my experience is either not relevant enough or not lengthy enough. Finally, my parents made a visit to Austin to discuss my "future." Great. My mom, who has been a teacher for over 20 years, encouraged me to apply to Alternative Teaching Certification programs. So, why not? I have always wanted to teach abroad, and this should be my first step. A little experience will be good for me. I can use my creativity for good.
But lately, I've felt less and less creative. I feel discouraged because I haven't found a job and I feel as if nothing that I do is good enough, or worth any of my time or anyone else's. I used to care so much about helping those in need, but I'm continuously giving less of a fuck about anyone or anything. We'll see.
UPDATE:
I woke up at 10 a.m. this morning - about an hour before my usual greeting time as of late. For some reason, the bed felt better than it ever had this morning. I just had to keep freshly shaven legs on those covers for a little bit longer - 30 minutes, no, 45, no, an hour longer than my first alarm. It is a problem that I can reset my alarm multiple times on my iPhone each morning, as I obviously take advantage of this feature almost every morning nowadays. Like clockwork myself, I awoke and immediately went about my 'strict' morning routine: brush teeth, (maybe) wash my face, pour out some raisin bran in a hefty bowl, maybe grab a banana or some yogurt, head back upstairs to my room and begin watching Netflix. The episodes go one after the other and my ear filters out the boring stuff while I browse the web. I mindlessly click the same site over and over, accidentally forgetting that I had just clicked on it not 5 minutes ago. I laugh occasionally at Amy Poehler's ridiculous lines on Parks and Recreation, or glance up and stare intensely at my iPad to see Heisenberg rampaging across the scene of Breaking Bad. If I get uncomfortable, I sometimes stand up on my heavy legs and stretch a little bit. Wait, how did I end up back on reddit? Just then, seriously.
I did not volunteer at Mainspring because I was too lazy, but luck was in my favor on Monday because Hudson Bend Middle School called me that same day for an interview. I just went in for it at 1 p.m., and it went pretty well. I need to work on my interviewing skills though because I was nervous the whole time and now I'm hoping it wasn't too obvious. I interviewed for a receptionist position in the front office.
